Random ramblings of what's in my head today....
Contentment. Just trying to be content with what we have and what God has given us. That has been my goal lately. I realized over the last couple of months that I get myself so worked up over what Addie is and isn't doing. Why is she sticking her tongue out so much, why is she moving her hand like that, why isn't she walking, why isn't she talking, why isn't she signing more....and then I ask if I am doing enough. Enough PT, OT, ST, working with her on signs, working on walking, working on talking, etc....and I have come to realize that I have NO control in this. NONE. ZIP. ZERO. NONE.
Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God and the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipeans 4:6-7.
peace that transcends understanding......peace. Peace to know that God is looking out for our better good. Addie's best interest. Whatever is going to be best for her. He is going to make it happen. He is in charge. He is the ultimate therapists. Sure all the therapy helps, but in the end..really...it's all up to Him. So what am I getting at? I really don't know actually. It's just my thoughts today and it is really giving me a great amount of peace.
Addie has been sick on and off all winter. Croup, pneumonia, then croup again, and now this nasty virus that just won't go away. And I worry, and worry, and worry. But I'm done with that...I'm giving it up and giving it to the Almighty Physician. Today I can be worry free and hopefully tomorrow and the next day...we shall see but I can't run myself ragged over thinking I'm not doing enough for her. If she doesn't walk by my sisters wedding on July 31st, then she won't and it will be just fine. God is in control.
I find it so interesting that so many people are into whatever is bigger, better, more expensive. And it is SOOOO very easy to get to that frame of mind. Recently Zac and I started looking at building a new house. It is what we desire in the next several years but thought maybe it was time now....and then in all of it I realize there was absolutely no reason for us to move. To don't have to worry about school districts yet, we like our neighbors, we have a great neighborhood, we have more than plenty of room, so why would we move right now? Because we thought we needed bigger and better...yeah, NOT a reason to move. So here we are going to stay. Content. Our basement remodel is almost done and then we'll have that project complete. And we can be content, not wanting more, not wishing we had better. And really, I am completely fine with that.
I challenge anyone who reads this to focus on being content today. It is a challenge, it isn't always easy. But when you find it, it's really quite nice. Good luck! =)